Just Cucumbers with Anxiety

Just Cucumbers with Anxiety

Hello everybody!

Sometimes we give our bodies a hard time and we need reminding that we are human. 

I don’t think that saying we’re only human’ is a great phrase… because quite frankly humans are pretty damn awesome.

  1. We, as humans, are made up of 95% water. Aka. you’re basically a cucumber…
  2. The human body contains enough fat to make seven bars of soap.
  3. When listening to music, your heart beat will sync with the rhythm.
  4. Stomach acid can dissolve metal. If it touched your skin, it would burn right through it.
  5. Tongue prints are as unique as finger prints.
  6. 50% of your hand strength comes from your pinky finger.

We don’t often think of ourselves as animals, but the reality is: we are. We are bad-ass mammals, with a heap tonne of complex emotions.

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So why do we constantly want to diet (and lose our seven bars worth of soap flubber)?

Why would we want to be the same as someone else when we’re beautifully unique (if in doubt check your tongue out in the mirror!)?

We have acid in our bellies, crazy evolved brains in our heads and power in our pinkies… we are perfectly human the way we are.

I challenge you to: 

  • Curb the comparisons. See your body in a positive light, embrace the flaws. You are perfectly imperfect. Your body gets you up every day, it will carry you through life. Treat it well. Show it some love.
  • Say ‘nuh-uh’ to body-bashing. It’s so easy to sit, often over a coffee, and body shame yourself. Why do we do that?! We do it to seek comfort in body dissatisfaction talk… but it always leaves us feeling worse. Change the topic to something more fulfilling.
  • Be realistic. What is your ‘ideal’ body image and why? I find myself gawking at pictures of super slim, totally beautiful (usually models) on instagram, facebook, magazines, etc and thinking ‘why don’t I look like that?’. Pictures of unattainable bodies fuel our insecurities. Maybe unfollow these magazines on Instagram, or avoid buying magazines you know will leave you feeling less than worthy. If it’s unavoidable call in the ‘motivational speech’ (that takes place in your head!). Ask yourself to have some perspective, how many people in everyday life look like these women? Realistically, these models and public figures that make you feel insecure about yourself, probably have their own insecurities.
  • Accept compliments. Do not brush them off. Doing so is like throwing away medicine and wondering why you still feel sick. Thank them, take the compliment, let it add some pep in your step!
  • Dress your personal best. A trap that I personally fell into, and I know I’m not alone, is keeping clothes in the back of your wardrobe and thinking ‘I’ll save them for when I’m [fill the gap]’. This is such a negative mindset. Maybe they will fit you again, but you can reward yourself when you are there. Keeping them in the name of Thinsperation is toxic. Buy clothes that fit you now, that you feel confident in now. You deserve to feel beautiful the size you are now.

So remember, you are human. Treat your body with the respect it deserves, love it and nourish it. You are beautifully unique.

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Bee xoxo





The Realities of Working Out

The Realities of Working Out

I am what I like to call: Fit(ish).

Fit(ish): semi-fit and a little bit podgy. Someone that likes the idea of being fit, but likes food too much.

I strive to be healthy. To me, this means two things. To be physically fitand active, and eat a healthy balanced diet. And mentally fit, whereby (to avoid mental breakdowns, and maintain sanity) I eat cake when and if I want it. I think it’s a pretty healthy diet. I would never want to resent being ‘healthy’ if it meant I couldn’t eat birthday cake, or have a takeaway every now and then. I’m a firm believer in treatin’ yo self. 

But that’s enough natter, here are some of the realities I have found with working out!


Getting bored after 5 minutes of any form of cardio. I have always hated running. I simply don’t enjoy it. But I do try. (I’m far better at running out of money, if I’m honest)will.gif

Running next to someone and it feeling like a race. They up the speed, so do I. Bring it. run.gif

My running style: drunk woman slowly being chased by absolutely nothing.drunk.gif

When you take your headphones out and realise you were making panting/grunting noiseswhile you did cardio.sponge.gif

When people look at you while you do cardio.melissa

When you up the speed too much and your heart skips a beat, because you can’t keep up.gym.gif

Me doing cardio: ’20 minutes left. That’s two lots of 10.  It’s only 4 lots of 5 minutes’(then I congratulate myself on the 30 seconds wasted on that mental maths session)wil.gif

I like to think, when people see me jogging outside, they think ‘wow an athlete’, but in reality it’s ‘aw, good for her’.

Quite frankly, the best bit about running is the end.

I’ve honestly come to the conclusion that running is wrong. I agree with Miranda Hart,unless it’s running professionally, or as a child- it’s not OK.


Is this just me? As a kid, at swimming lessons, I would convince myself there was a shark in the pool– so I would swim faster. Maybe I should imagine clowns on the treadmill behind me.shark.gif


‘Sweat is just my fat crying’.

‘I may look like a potato now, but one day I’ll turn into fries and you’ll all want me then.’

‘I work out because I know I would have been the first to die in the Hunger Games.’

‘I wear all black in the gym, like a funeral for my fat.’


When your ‘cheat meal’ turns into a cheat week.shame.gif

Stepping on the scales and seeing no change after weeks of exercise: ‘off to Krispy Kreme I go’.donunt.gif

Leaving the gym feeling great, waking up the next morning feeling like your legs are hungover.


Aim:to be the weight I told the app I was.

‘Drink more water’ they said, ‘it will be good for you’ they said. I’m weeing ALL THE TIME.

(Last time I did that 2 litre a day thing, my Mum sent me to the Doctors thinking I had diabetes.)

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Embracing your summer body like at least my flipflops still fit!fat b 2.gif

So there it is, a page full of GIF’s, personal experiences and life contemplations, from a Fit(ish) individual with some serious love for cake. 

Dot To Dot- Wish List

Dot To Dot- Wish List

I am loving all things dots at the moment and if I had more money I would certainly be wearing more of them! So today, I put together a Wish List of dot inspired clothing. I feel like Cruella Deville (minus all things animal cruelty!).

These are all products I would wear. So I’ve picked out things that would suit my body type. I am a HUGE promoter of dressing to suit your figure and to make you comfortable. And quite frankly, not all the ‘on trend’ styles suit me. So being brutally honest: I am 5 ft 3, I have big boobs and chunky thighs. So here is what I have learnt:

  1. Never underestimate the importance of feeling good in your clothes. You wear it with confidence and you will own it.
  2. You got big thighs? Emphasise your waist- oh and floaty trousers are your new best friend. 
  3. Fact: People pay mega bucks for boobs. Though I am the first to complain about their inconvenience, I know they ain’t going nowhere, so why not dress to suit! This, for me, means avoiding baggy tops and wearing comfy, supportive bras (even if they are a little granny-like or you have to pay a little extra!).
  4. Would you talk to your best friend the way you talk to yourself (in terms of body image)? No? Then stop. Be nice to yourself!

I hope you enjoy!

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Mae Woven Pleated Polka Dot Culottes- £20, Boohoo.

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Bethany Polka Dot Wrap Front Jumpsuit- £25, Boohoo.

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Boutique Indira Polka Dot Tulle Full Midi Skirt- £20, Boohoo.

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Polka Dot Wrap Self Tie Waist Frill Cami Dress- £12, Shein.

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ASOS Bardot Long Sleeve Mini Skater Dress in Polka Dot- £28, ASOS.

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Missguided Polka Dot Jumpsuit- £35, Missguided.

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Mango Dot and Floral Midi Skirt- £16, and Floral Tie Crop-Top- £11.50, Mango

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New Look Polka Dot Wide Leg Trousers-£11, New Look

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Club L Polka Dot Wrap Dress With Flute Sleeve- £25, Club L/ASOS

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Black Polka Dot Gathered Sleeve Blazer Set- £35, Missguided

Is it just me that dreams of the day I can see something I like and just click ‘buy now’ without a second thought?